DaysLady
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Many of you may recall my nephew Bradley and his battle with EoE, a disease of the esophagus. He is unable to eat food by mouth and has a feeding tube. He has good days and bad.
Good Day = because of his body's reactions to food, water (even bath water) can be painful. Ocean water, with all it's salt, was even worse. He would sit on the beach and sadly watch as his siblings played in the waves and would never dare go in because it's hurts so bad.
This brings me to the good day. His feeding tube has allowed his body to heal. Water is no longer painful. He dared to try it, and spent an entire hour playing int he ocean. His smile didn't fade for a while. He even played in the lake with me this summer and we had a water gun fight. He even begged "Stay in the water Aunt Steph!!!" My heart is full when he is so happy and is able to play.
Bad Day = we have had a few bad days recently. My sister in law, his mama, caught him stealing food in the middle of the night and eating it in his room. This is terrifying. Food can kill him!!! So she took it away and warned him of the dangers and was being stern with him, and he just cried and cried. He said "mama, I'm so hungry, please let me eat. Please, I just want to put something in my mouth that I can taste, please mama, please let me eat." He is depressed, heartbroken all over again because he cannot eat food. (granted, there are 2-3 things he can eat by mouth, but it's been 2 years. He's grown tired of sweet potato.)
And on top of that, the insurance company wants to take away coverage of his feedings for his feeding tube and supplies. It seems every year they try to take it away, it is very expensive. If the insurance company succeeds, Bradley could face starvation, or worse, he could try to steal food again. Food can cause a reaction that could suffocate him.
My heart is broken. I've cried 3 times so I have no idea how my sister in law holds it together so well. I just want to feed my nephew, I want more than anything for him to get that bite that tastes so good.
Pray for my nephew's depression to go away, pray for his heart and strength, and pray for my sister in law. She only holds it together in front of us. But I know her heart is breaking behind closed doors.
And do us all a favor. At your next meal, slow down, close your eyes, and truly enjoy every tasteful bite of your food. Never take one single bite for granted.
Good Day = because of his body's reactions to food, water (even bath water) can be painful. Ocean water, with all it's salt, was even worse. He would sit on the beach and sadly watch as his siblings played in the waves and would never dare go in because it's hurts so bad.
This brings me to the good day. His feeding tube has allowed his body to heal. Water is no longer painful. He dared to try it, and spent an entire hour playing int he ocean. His smile didn't fade for a while. He even played in the lake with me this summer and we had a water gun fight. He even begged "Stay in the water Aunt Steph!!!" My heart is full when he is so happy and is able to play.
Bad Day = we have had a few bad days recently. My sister in law, his mama, caught him stealing food in the middle of the night and eating it in his room. This is terrifying. Food can kill him!!! So she took it away and warned him of the dangers and was being stern with him, and he just cried and cried. He said "mama, I'm so hungry, please let me eat. Please, I just want to put something in my mouth that I can taste, please mama, please let me eat." He is depressed, heartbroken all over again because he cannot eat food. (granted, there are 2-3 things he can eat by mouth, but it's been 2 years. He's grown tired of sweet potato.)
And on top of that, the insurance company wants to take away coverage of his feedings for his feeding tube and supplies. It seems every year they try to take it away, it is very expensive. If the insurance company succeeds, Bradley could face starvation, or worse, he could try to steal food again. Food can cause a reaction that could suffocate him.
My heart is broken. I've cried 3 times so I have no idea how my sister in law holds it together so well. I just want to feed my nephew, I want more than anything for him to get that bite that tastes so good.
Pray for my nephew's depression to go away, pray for his heart and strength, and pray for my sister in law. She only holds it together in front of us. But I know her heart is breaking behind closed doors.
And do us all a favor. At your next meal, slow down, close your eyes, and truly enjoy every tasteful bite of your food. Never take one single bite for granted.