Good Morning Friends,
I'm very full of mixed emotions today. I cried tears of joy last night when I watched the Cubs win via Google. The games they lost were the ones I watched, so I didn't watch the last 3 just in case.
And then this morning the dilemma that I have been debating about in my mind was settled. I've decided to file for divorce. I feel like such a quitter, but I just can't be married to my husband anymore. Today was the final straw. He called in sick to work after another long night of heavy drinking. Then I get a call from Gena's school that she got sick at school and we needed to pick her up.
So I try calling him since he's home and he wouldn't answer the phone but once (out of 16 calls) to tell me to "I don't know who you are, but stop calling" (at this point I had left 2 messages) and then immediately hung up. So I had to get out of work to pick Gena up and take her home, where he tells me I needed to stay home as he "has stuff to do". Really, just grrr.
I can't do it anymore, I'm sick of him being drunk every day and all the other horrible things that happen. Gena and I deserve so much better. I'm just sick to my stomach right now and want to curl up and cry. But I know I can't, I need to be strong for my little girl and know in my head and heart that I'm doing the best thing for her.
Sorry to be a downer, but my heart is broken and heavy with grief. Love you all so much, you are my second family.