One day at a time, as we all said. I remember my sister constantly telling me she did not know how I could do it. She kept trying. (but she carried a pack in her purse "just in case"). I told her one day, you will find you can and will. And she did. but it was because of being diagnosed with emphysema.
You, too, lookoflove, will succeed in the end. You have the will. And you sure have support here. Stay on the path.